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butterflydreamingGuilt guilt guilt. This, from that slightly embarrassing author self-insertion Yue-fic:
"She regarded him with an unfaltering adoration; she wrote poetry to him. She had promised him a happy ending. She promised not to leave him until he didn’t need her anymore."
Writing fanfic is supposed to be fun. But if there wasn't a burning sense of needing to make things Right, I wouldn't have gotten started on something like TC. Then I was supposed to be done, but I wasn't done... things got in the way... I couldn't bring myself to write the rest. Finishing it has a tip-of-the-tongue feeling. I promised him a happy ending. I thought I'd have it sewn together by now.
It's just fanfic, some might say. It's about the installments, not the completion. Personally, I find it frustrating to read WIPs. Fanfic is mostly undeveloped one-shots and unfinished but not officially abandoned WIPs. Every now and again, I get a comment on TC and am reminded that there it is, being read, waiting for its ending.
The chapter-in-the-works has been reincarnated so many times that I have lost count. For not being my character, Yue has developed an attitude like one; I can tell that he's miffed at me. He's beautiful when he's cranky, y'know that?
The guilt gets in the way. I think. I'm too preoccupied with being overdue. I need the characters to go out and do something fun. The flying lesson was fun.
Clow would know how to have fun.
I very much want to finish this story, archive it at the Pit, and stop feeling guilty.
"She regarded him with an unfaltering adoration; she wrote poetry to him. She had promised him a happy ending. She promised not to leave him until he didn’t need her anymore."
Writing fanfic is supposed to be fun. But if there wasn't a burning sense of needing to make things Right, I wouldn't have gotten started on something like TC. Then I was supposed to be done, but I wasn't done... things got in the way... I couldn't bring myself to write the rest. Finishing it has a tip-of-the-tongue feeling. I promised him a happy ending. I thought I'd have it sewn together by now.
It's just fanfic, some might say. It's about the installments, not the completion. Personally, I find it frustrating to read WIPs. Fanfic is mostly undeveloped one-shots and unfinished but not officially abandoned WIPs. Every now and again, I get a comment on TC and am reminded that there it is, being read, waiting for its ending.
The chapter-in-the-works has been reincarnated so many times that I have lost count. For not being my character, Yue has developed an attitude like one; I can tell that he's miffed at me. He's beautiful when he's cranky, y'know that?
The guilt gets in the way. I think. I'm too preoccupied with being overdue. I need the characters to go out and do something fun. The flying lesson was fun.
Clow would know how to have fun.
I very much want to finish this story, archive it at the Pit, and stop feeling guilty.