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butterflydreamingI have a lot of disconnected pieces of RY and only two more months to turn it into a readable first draft. Since the change up at work, I haven't written more than a few sentences, so tonight I sat down, opened a fresh page, and wrote what the story is about.
Well, no. I wrote down what happens in the story. That's more concrete.
It helped. The two ending options merged into something that I think will work. I finally *really* worked out the timeline. The thing that makes me smirk, though, is that I thought Ciel would get the girl in the end, yet that turned out a little different once I got the story tidied up. Because she seems to be saying, "You still have a lot of living to do first." There is no wedding in the end, no happily-ever-after, or even big, steamy kiss of requited love. Everyone seems to be okay with that. Everyone except the obstacle character, the pseudo-villain, who still needs a name that suits him.
From the original concept, I've removed the love triangle that involved said villain and completely changed the true nature of love relationship of my MCs.
If the POV let me, I'd have some creepy, evil doctors at the insane asylum. If there is a sequel, and Vio gets the sequel, maybe they'll be in that.
At the heart of things, I still see myself as the unrequited one. The unlovable. In spite of glaring contradiction! I am loved, I have been loved. It's from that view of myself that my attitude toward romance comes. I suppose that I believe that love out-of-balance is truth. Chalk it up to terrible lessons learned from popular entertainment and fiction. Though, it is not just that. I believe that being loved by someone else is secondary to knowing and loving oneself. In fact, that it is unstable to build a romance-relationship on any other foundation.
Most of all, I don't see the romance as the end. What good is falling in love with someone unless there are further adventures?
Well, no. I wrote down what happens in the story. That's more concrete.
It helped. The two ending options merged into something that I think will work. I finally *really* worked out the timeline. The thing that makes me smirk, though, is that I thought Ciel would get the girl in the end, yet that turned out a little different once I got the story tidied up. Because she seems to be saying, "You still have a lot of living to do first." There is no wedding in the end, no happily-ever-after, or even big, steamy kiss of requited love. Everyone seems to be okay with that. Everyone except the obstacle character, the pseudo-villain, who still needs a name that suits him.
From the original concept, I've removed the love triangle that involved said villain and completely changed the true nature of love relationship of my MCs.
If the POV let me, I'd have some creepy, evil doctors at the insane asylum. If there is a sequel, and Vio gets the sequel, maybe they'll be in that.
At the heart of things, I still see myself as the unrequited one. The unlovable. In spite of glaring contradiction! I am loved, I have been loved. It's from that view of myself that my attitude toward romance comes. I suppose that I believe that love out-of-balance is truth. Chalk it up to terrible lessons learned from popular entertainment and fiction. Though, it is not just that. I believe that being loved by someone else is secondary to knowing and loving oneself. In fact, that it is unstable to build a romance-relationship on any other foundation.
Most of all, I don't see the romance as the end. What good is falling in love with someone unless there are further adventures?
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Cool choice of words
Date: 2011-07-22 11:32 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-07-22 01:35 pm (UTC)Thiiis. This, so much.
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Date: 2011-07-22 10:23 pm (UTC)I get the romance structure, where the admission of love is a turning point, but then... you get married and have a couple of kids and live boringly ever after? Meh. (Disclaimer 1: I'm not saying getting married and having kids in itself is boring.)
Falling in love is cool, but I have to say the being-and-staying in love stuff has been a much more interesting story.