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butterflydreaming ([personal profile] butterflydreaming) wrote2007-08-10 01:14 pm
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"If I fail to cry another night..."



If I fail to cry through another night over this,
Add it to the rest of my failures on a list.
Even if my trust was a treasure you possessed,
I didn't dare to think this would work out for the best;
Though love puts in the knife, hope provides the twist.

If I lost my smile and held your actions to blame,
If I took my disappointment and fanned it to a flame,
I'd be playing innocent to my reckless surrender,
and ignorant to a history I'd do right to remember:
I myself have done no better; I am just the same.

You don't say you're sorry, or in any way apologize
For all the times I believed you when you were telling lovely lies.
It's smarter to be cynical about pledges that are made in bed.
Feeling you would never choose me, I was careful about what I said,
Loving you without saying so and wanting it otherwise.

And I was right. I spoiled it, unable to stay quiet anymore
My wanting had grown greater than I would continue to ignore.
After all this, I don't even care which one of us was lying;
The hurt is deep, and it still stings, but I am done with crying.
Here we are, and there is no way to go back to what we were before.

[identity profile] joyful-storm.livejournal.com 2007-08-10 08:53 pm (UTC)(link)
<3

[identity profile] ex-neke.livejournal.com 2007-08-10 09:39 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs*

[identity profile] primal-shout.livejournal.com 2007-08-10 09:57 pm (UTC)(link)
this is amazing, as well as being something i've been trying to say for a long time.

[identity profile] mimerki.livejournal.com 2007-08-10 11:34 pm (UTC)(link)
It's a shame that heartbreak makes the best poems... I really... appreciate this one (I want to say "like" but I don't like it at all). It has good flow and really hits that particular ache.

One nit:
You don't say your sorry
you're

(I hate picking the nits, but I will be driven mad by it if I don't.)

[identity profile] chrysalisdreams.livejournal.com 2007-08-12 10:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, thank you for catching that and telling me! Haste makes... typos.

[identity profile] kokyu.livejournal.com 2007-08-31 06:17 am (UTC)(link)

Just a note to say Hey.

Hope you're happier than this entry implies.

and, Oh yeah, Hey!