No right to complain
Jul. 20th, 2007 02:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
butterflydreamingToday: Remember a bunch of things I was supposed to have done already. Desperate seeking out of: birthday present for L (I've been looking for a particular item), book for the plane trip. Pack if possible.
Today/Tomorrow: Spending time w/ my sweetie, House Filk at his place
Sunday: (Work -- can't forget that) Bon Odori festival in the CD. I love O-Bon. I hope it's not raining. :(
Monday: (Work... prep them for me being gone a whole week) Last minute packing and such.
We're leaving on Tuesday morning, at a disgustingly early time, to spend an entire week on Oahu. For both L and EV this is Hawaii for the first time. This will be my third, though I haven't spent more than a day before on this capitol city island. A week in Paradise!
I know I'll have a great time, yet instead of being impatient with excitement, I'm waiting to get it over with. Not the trip, but the anticipation. I didn't pick the time; EV has a conference next week and with this and her father's death last fall, her travel dollars were eaten up. So if we wanted to see each other before 2008 -- we try to about once a year -- then this was the way to do it. For me it's the cost, particularly the lost time at work (even if my new job offer paid vacation time, I wouldn't have earned any yet). Being out of work for several weeks hurt financially, and having this trip planned added a complication and an extra worry in finding work. We had to find a care situation for our cats. L's been working tons of overtime, partly because she's had to and partly because those hours will make up for the missing week; she doesn't get paid holiday either. She's tired and stressed out this week.
And really, there's just too much going on this summer. Too much running around. I feel like I don't have a chance to spend enough time with anyone or doing anything. I multi-task my chores but I'm dull and stupid while trying to do them. I'm staying up too late, getting up too early, and I still can't seem to get to a dozen important things. Even reading seems slower, because when did it ever take me two weeks to finish a book?
On top it, I feel like I don't have any right to complain. It's like complaining about being at a banquet because I can't eat everything and it's all high calorie, because I don't know if I'm wearing the right outfit and I have leftovers in my fridge that need to get eaten.
What I really want to do is relax and not think about doing anything. Conveniently, this is L's agenda too, for next week.
Today/Tomorrow: Spending time w/ my sweetie, House Filk at his place
Sunday: (Work -- can't forget that) Bon Odori festival in the CD. I love O-Bon. I hope it's not raining. :(
Monday: (Work... prep them for me being gone a whole week) Last minute packing and such.
We're leaving on Tuesday morning, at a disgustingly early time, to spend an entire week on Oahu. For both L and EV this is Hawaii for the first time. This will be my third, though I haven't spent more than a day before on this capitol city island. A week in Paradise!
I know I'll have a great time, yet instead of being impatient with excitement, I'm waiting to get it over with. Not the trip, but the anticipation. I didn't pick the time; EV has a conference next week and with this and her father's death last fall, her travel dollars were eaten up. So if we wanted to see each other before 2008 -- we try to about once a year -- then this was the way to do it. For me it's the cost, particularly the lost time at work (even if my new job offer paid vacation time, I wouldn't have earned any yet). Being out of work for several weeks hurt financially, and having this trip planned added a complication and an extra worry in finding work. We had to find a care situation for our cats. L's been working tons of overtime, partly because she's had to and partly because those hours will make up for the missing week; she doesn't get paid holiday either. She's tired and stressed out this week.
And really, there's just too much going on this summer. Too much running around. I feel like I don't have a chance to spend enough time with anyone or doing anything. I multi-task my chores but I'm dull and stupid while trying to do them. I'm staying up too late, getting up too early, and I still can't seem to get to a dozen important things. Even reading seems slower, because when did it ever take me two weeks to finish a book?
On top it, I feel like I don't have any right to complain. It's like complaining about being at a banquet because I can't eat everything and it's all high calorie, because I don't know if I'm wearing the right outfit and I have leftovers in my fridge that need to get eaten.
What I really want to do is relax and not think about doing anything. Conveniently, this is L's agenda too, for next week.
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Date: 2007-07-21 03:55 am (UTC)Aloha!