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butterflydreamingFirst... I don't know what this LJMeme.com thing is.
And I just got some new manga...
I just have to say, I've been repeatedly happy with Robert's. The service is always quick, the prices fair, everything legitimate. And the packaging is not excessive, but does the job. And they use USPS (I love the post office -- no sarcasm).
Yesterday, I got the first 2 volumes of Demon Diary, which I enjoyed reading... and I've already read through them. Yargg. How long can I wait until ordering more, really, when I'm already in the red from my recent tech purchase?
Eclipse is a honey, yes he is. The writing is fun and cute, and the artwork is quite nice. It's Western style format, sadly, but at least it is in the larger size, rather than the little pocket size (like CCS was, first run). Having logged in many, many hours watching anime in JP with subtitle, I can "reverse translate" the text, thus having some of it make more sense (because I can guess where -san was used, or -sama, for example).
Still, the lovely, masculine, "raven haired" Eclipse is not really competition for "my" Yue, even if he does have those claws... .
(more rambling)
I caught a few errors in my read-through this afternoon in the revision, so (bleh) I will be re-uploading them after I'm done here. Then, to do things properly, I need to jump through the paper-wrapped hoops and put the revision on the Clow Stories space. You know what I would really love to learn? How to build (code, I guess) an archive system. Right now, it's strictly cut-n-paste. I've had the thought on occasion that if I shy out of doing NaNoWriMo that I should do NaNoDaProMo (I think that's what the community is called) and choose teaching myself how to build a website as my "Daunting Project". I am smart. I am!
So, thoughts on "IS,BW".
I'm wasn't really expecting anyone to read it, but, y'know, why not do it anyway? It had needed an update. And the whole title thing... that had been bugging me for months. I finally found the source material, and confirmed that yes, I had gotten it wrong.
So, it should be obvious -- Clow is the Indian Summer, Yue is Blackthorn Winter. Clow lived too long, unnaturally long, and it upset the order of things. That lifetime, all of them together, was "idleness and ease". After Clow's death, Yue goes into an extended period of grieving ("TC"s first chapter is titled "Winter Heart"); a time of fallow emotions that goes on too long.
I found that I had been wondering, nine-ish months ago when I wrote this in its first incarnation, just why Clow chose that time and that way to die. I kept thinking that there was so much more to it than "it is my time" and feeling tired of living. Clow, tired of living?!? Not possible!
A bit of (over) indentification with him: I know that I do things that seem sudden, when I've thought and thought about them in secret for long periods of time. It confuses people. They don't know how I come to my decisions. Well, I thought, maybe Clow is like me in that. No one ever knows what he is thinking. (Plus, me & Clow are on the same page when it comes to Whim.)
And then, I was trying to work out a way to make sense of what I understood of Yue, the manga timeline, the false memories, and the whole idea of Guardians and the Final Judgement. I see fics (the few that there are) where Kero and Yue are groomed from their roles from the beginning, but... that just didn't jibe with me, considering their reactions to Clow's announcement of his death.
And I saw the announcement scene as evidence of Clow/Yue, because after at least hundreds of years together, Yue's reactions didn't strike me as a child's toward a parent. And they are so different from Kero's. It struck me that their relationships to Clow were not parent-child. Clow seals Yue first, and then lingers a moment with Keroberos before sealing him, too. That's more of a confidant & friend kind of thing. (Which is why I insist that Kero came 1st.)
I have never been convinced or even open to the idea that the Guardians were ever "children" -- not babies, not psychologically. Even Spinel Sun and Ruby Moon are a little odd... definitely not human. And childhood, the gradual learning of what it means to be a person, is the most human of experiences... the most humanizing of experiences, if you will. So full grown "adults" would not be like children to Clow. (Which is why I don't see C/Y as incestuous.)
I'm amazed if you're still with me... .
I'm at loose ends again, today, still not wanting to write any orig fiction or approach any of my WsIP. I might take another stab at that Yukito-Yue fic that's so f*ing famous... {cringes at thought}. Just because I'm curious about Yue singing... .
UPDATE -- after reading ch 1, skimming 8, glancing at 10. Well, that was disappointing.
| Trust Metric | |
My trust level is: 67% | |
And I just got some new manga...
I just have to say, I've been repeatedly happy with Robert's. The service is always quick, the prices fair, everything legitimate. And the packaging is not excessive, but does the job. And they use USPS (I love the post office -- no sarcasm).
Yesterday, I got the first 2 volumes of Demon Diary, which I enjoyed reading... and I've already read through them. Yargg. How long can I wait until ordering more, really, when I'm already in the red from my recent tech purchase?
Eclipse is a honey, yes he is. The writing is fun and cute, and the artwork is quite nice. It's Western style format, sadly, but at least it is in the larger size, rather than the little pocket size (like CCS was, first run). Having logged in many, many hours watching anime in JP with subtitle, I can "reverse translate" the text, thus having some of it make more sense (because I can guess where -san was used, or -sama, for example).
Still, the lovely, masculine, "raven haired" Eclipse is not really competition for "my" Yue, even if he does have those claws... .
(more rambling)
I caught a few errors in my read-through this afternoon in the revision, so (bleh) I will be re-uploading them after I'm done here. Then, to do things properly, I need to jump through the paper-wrapped hoops and put the revision on the Clow Stories space. You know what I would really love to learn? How to build (code, I guess) an archive system. Right now, it's strictly cut-n-paste. I've had the thought on occasion that if I shy out of doing NaNoWriMo that I should do NaNoDaProMo (I think that's what the community is called) and choose teaching myself how to build a website as my "Daunting Project". I am smart. I am!
So, thoughts on "IS,BW".
I'm wasn't really expecting anyone to read it, but, y'know, why not do it anyway? It had needed an update. And the whole title thing... that had been bugging me for months. I finally found the source material, and confirmed that yes, I had gotten it wrong.
So, it should be obvious -- Clow is the Indian Summer, Yue is Blackthorn Winter. Clow lived too long, unnaturally long, and it upset the order of things. That lifetime, all of them together, was "idleness and ease". After Clow's death, Yue goes into an extended period of grieving ("TC"s first chapter is titled "Winter Heart"); a time of fallow emotions that goes on too long.
I found that I had been wondering, nine-ish months ago when I wrote this in its first incarnation, just why Clow chose that time and that way to die. I kept thinking that there was so much more to it than "it is my time" and feeling tired of living. Clow, tired of living?!? Not possible!
A bit of (over) indentification with him: I know that I do things that seem sudden, when I've thought and thought about them in secret for long periods of time. It confuses people. They don't know how I come to my decisions. Well, I thought, maybe Clow is like me in that. No one ever knows what he is thinking. (Plus, me & Clow are on the same page when it comes to Whim.)
And then, I was trying to work out a way to make sense of what I understood of Yue, the manga timeline, the false memories, and the whole idea of Guardians and the Final Judgement. I see fics (the few that there are) where Kero and Yue are groomed from their roles from the beginning, but... that just didn't jibe with me, considering their reactions to Clow's announcement of his death.
And I saw the announcement scene as evidence of Clow/Yue, because after at least hundreds of years together, Yue's reactions didn't strike me as a child's toward a parent. And they are so different from Kero's. It struck me that their relationships to Clow were not parent-child. Clow seals Yue first, and then lingers a moment with Keroberos before sealing him, too. That's more of a confidant & friend kind of thing. (Which is why I insist that Kero came 1st.)
I have never been convinced or even open to the idea that the Guardians were ever "children" -- not babies, not psychologically. Even Spinel Sun and Ruby Moon are a little odd... definitely not human. And childhood, the gradual learning of what it means to be a person, is the most human of experiences... the most humanizing of experiences, if you will. So full grown "adults" would not be like children to Clow. (Which is why I don't see C/Y as incestuous.)
I'm amazed if you're still with me... .
I'm at loose ends again, today, still not wanting to write any orig fiction or approach any of my WsIP. I might take another stab at that Yukito-Yue fic that's so f*ing famous... {cringes at thought}. Just because I'm curious about Yue singing... .
UPDATE -- after reading ch 1, skimming 8, glancing at 10. Well, that was disappointing.
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Regarding LJMeme.com...
Date: 2004-08-20 04:54 am (UTC)Personally I wouldn't mind it, but I know some people on my Friendslist who are sufficiently paranoid to care.