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butterflydreaming) wrote2017-01-11 08:52 pm
butterflydreaming) wrote2017-01-11 08:52 pm
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Periodically i do this, to remember right
.I'm reading my handwritten journal from 2005, picked out of the stack without intentionally selecting the year, after the 2008 and 2010 journals were too sad. Too sad. In was unhappy for a long time.
In 2005, I was falling in love. I am watching myself fall in love, deliberately. With someone who is now dead, so there is that. But 2005 me... she deserved love. Feeling super emo and really, what is this thing I do where I revisit who I was? But this, I didn't remember this right. It really was a pure thing. I was wrong, but I did love with an open heart.
I guess I need to remind myself... something. I don't know what that something is.
In 2005, I was falling in love. I am watching myself fall in love, deliberately. With someone who is now dead, so there is that. But 2005 me... she deserved love. Feeling super emo and really, what is this thing I do where I revisit who I was? But this, I didn't remember this right. It really was a pure thing. I was wrong, but I did love with an open heart.
I guess I need to remind myself... something. I don't know what that something is.