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Dec. 23rd, 2018 09:48 pm I'm a mess. I don't feel like a mess; I feel fine. However, my life has stalled out (no writing, art, correspondance, or even updating social m media) except for cooking/cooking related errands, Pokemon Go, and Destiel. The shipping is new. I don't remember, though, what I binged on Netflix between all the Star Trek and Supernatural. My cat died in late August, I've been unemployed since July, and in October I moved into the tiny basement bedroom at my sister's house. I guess it has been hard on me somewhere with all that.
I started watching Supernatural in November. I mean, I had seen some of S1 streamed, and occasional (S8-ish) episodes when they aired, but the show hadn't hooked me. This time, though. I'm a Dean girl and shipping Dean/Cas so hard that it feels like falling in love. I can't even talk about the show aloud without feeling painfully embarrassed. My 16 year old niece seems to think it's cute how much I like the show. Heh heh. Hmm.
Living with a teen, being the cool aunt, is interesting. I lived in this same room for a couple of months twenty years ago. There has been a lot of decluttering and cleaning, I have ton a lot of shredding and recycling and organizing, in orderfor me to fit the modest amount of stuff I have. Twenty years fills a house, especially since my Mom has been gone ten.
It might take until spring, but I know I'll get forward motion again soon. I mean, I do things...obviously, I look for a job. I go out and do stuff. But this no-writing thing, it's worrisome. Maybe by loving a pairing again I can invest feeling in something.
2018 feel like it's been four years long. I can read Japanese! Well, some. I can actually read my Duolingo review lessons. A handful of simple kanji (Japan, China, school, rain), and such, but it's pretty exciting to poke through the simple sentences and read them.
Anyway, that's a sampling of where I'm at. This is the longest thing I've written in months.
I started watching Supernatural in November. I mean, I had seen some of S1 streamed, and occasional (S8-ish) episodes when they aired, but the show hadn't hooked me. This time, though. I'm a Dean girl and shipping Dean/Cas so hard that it feels like falling in love. I can't even talk about the show aloud without feeling painfully embarrassed. My 16 year old niece seems to think it's cute how much I like the show. Heh heh. Hmm.
Living with a teen, being the cool aunt, is interesting. I lived in this same room for a couple of months twenty years ago. There has been a lot of decluttering and cleaning, I have ton a lot of shredding and recycling and organizing, in orderfor me to fit the modest amount of stuff I have. Twenty years fills a house, especially since my Mom has been gone ten.
It might take until spring, but I know I'll get forward motion again soon. I mean, I do things...obviously, I look for a job. I go out and do stuff. But this no-writing thing, it's worrisome. Maybe by loving a pairing again I can invest feeling in something.
2018 feel like it's been four years long. I can read Japanese! Well, some. I can actually read my Duolingo review lessons. A handful of simple kanji (Japan, China, school, rain), and such, but it's pretty exciting to poke through the simple sentences and read them.
Anyway, that's a sampling of where I'm at. This is the longest thing I've written in months.